Friday, May 06, 2011 / 11:13 AM
Despite that 8 stacks of SS answer scripts sitting on my desk, my thoughts couldnt help but wander off, even if it's just for a little while. and in the short, indulgent span of 30 seconds maybe, i caught myself thinking about being in my own shop. It's a wonderful and comforting picture-- with the right songs to set the ambience of my interior, the quiet of the morning, re-arranging the display to make sure everything is in order and steaming the clothes to make sure they are looking their best. This may sound mundane to many, chasing numbers at work, hitting quotas in a month, but right now, this dream is exactly what keeps my work going.
The idea is increasing tempting, and more fearfully, real. While i would never have thought of being my boss, i find myself planning in that direction, even willing to postpone family plans to establish my own place first. Though current realities catch up and replace these daydreams with pressing needs of the house (that is non existent as of now), the wedding preparations (nitty gritty details of the guest list and seeking the help of friends to fill various roles that 2 days), putting aside more finances for Nicole and Mummy, something in me prevents the stillness and zen from being thrown off balance. I think the Higher Being in my life, together with his host of angels has been working OT to keep the pieces of my life together, planting all the rightest people around me, as well as keeping jem and i close :) Really am thankful for that incredible boy. :)
i wonder also from time to time- how does he do it? Love someone as demanding (yes Barry, ive come to terms that im that), as restless as I?
but he just does. In the simplest of ways, no less.
谢谢你,
成为我这辈子的幸福.
The Girl Inside
Michelle,
seeking the best in her, yet looking at her best days unfolding right before her at the same time.
contact her at: inspiremydance@hotmail.com
"It's not how hard you fall, but how hard you fight back."
Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.
~endless time in the studio
~more cuppa time with dearlings
~travel more places
~dressing up
~getting that diver's license by 2009
