Monday, October 11, 2010 / 8:44 AM
when you grow up, are u less entitled to throw tantrums, have mood swings, be grouchy, unpleasant, and have bitch-fits?
restless. frustrated. distanced.
in a moment where all three collide, i find it toughest to be the best i can
i become the girl i despise, unable to find reason, or rationalize a better behaviour out of me.
The things i usually love triggers annoyance, irritance.
I don't want to be thrown into new environments which demands of me to present my better energetic self.
Status quo. stagnation becomes the comfort blankie i want to hide under.
the adult side of me tells me to knock it off, but the emotional side tells me that if i keep knocking off these feelings and senses just to accomodate the world's demands and expectations, il soon lose my connection with me. Fair enough, this-me isnt all too pleasant to be around. im not proud of it. it reminds me of a teenage-rebel-without-a-cause, defiance-for-no-reason stage. BUT i want to be this way. even if its for a while. just leave me be.
il pray hail marys to be good. but it will not erase the fact that i find his sense of self righteousness and the vibe he gives me highly irritating! pardon me from rolling my eyes.
The Girl Inside
Michelle,
seeking the best in her, yet looking at her best days unfolding right before her at the same time.
contact her at: inspiremydance@hotmail.com
"It's not how hard you fall, but how hard you fight back."
Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.
~endless time in the studio
~more cuppa time with dearlings
~travel more places
~dressing up
~getting that diver's license by 2009
