Wednesday, May 30, 2007 / 2:24 AM
another late night....relishing these relaxing moments b4 the lesson planning overwhelms me again...with the heats juz over...im sure i speak fer everyone when i say: STRESS!! hahaha nv really felt so old till we saw the full power of these young folks...makes me wunder..time to retire from stage already??
but whether fer the prize, glory or not, its a great feeling juz dancing with familiar crowd...the familiar sensation of marking steps again and again, looking uniform or neat even as we mark...i mean..it might sound consolatory..bt really it feels great dancing with this amazing bunch of dancers!!! kudos to BHF! BIG HAIR (ROZ) AND FRENZ (TAUFIK, MAKI, IDIL SALADIN ALAMIN, ahem MACHO MARY AND MIDGET LIN!) juz praying hard to god, to keep our limbs and health in gd shape, keep the smiles, jokes, laughter flowing and up up UP THE ENERGY PPL!!! we can act lk old fogeys after this oke!!!
and these days....thnks to princesses...fer dbsk-ing with me, playing dress up..haha...not cosplay here....fer singing, humming, walking, relaxing, shopping with me......cheers to god fer old frenz, new frenz and forever frenz....including the girl who is angry at me now..
Friday, May 25, 2007 / 12:32 AM
its been back to nie and dance..dance dance dance..with those familiar faces, inside jokes, the bitching ard without hard feelings...i love the blast peeps....thanx guys! fer bringing back the love fer dance, the pride in the item, the energy of dancing nex to you all agn!!Found myself staring at the clouds alot more than the stars recently....realised i love the comforting sight of the big fluffy clouds in the bright blue sky....i hope my classrm envt will be this way too, bright and postive like the weather dese days, but alwaz with a big cloud overhead where my kids can learn in a cool headed, peaceful envt.....Not making sense? hmmmm i think im still thinkiing abt it too...thinking abt hw i shld approach a whole new classrm and a new sch....god bless me with angels. oh and food...
Sunday, May 20, 2007 / 4:52 PM
lazy sunday....waiting fer the seconds to tick past me...time rushes me by...wish i could slow it down....to press the stop button, take a step back and review the world around me..to understd the world from someone else's eyes.....to hop outta me and taste and experience life as someone else.....
there is a monotony and emptiness which i know muz be filled...i know in my happy moments, these voids are fergtten....filled by laughter, by frenz....on my own...i need god to fill me, fill me with a purpose in life....a responsibility to keep me moving and motivated.....
im at my worst these days...and its nt juz the hair..
Saturday, May 19, 2007 / 12:51 PM
i love the smell of a coming rain.......the air becomes slightly hurried, as though beckoned to head off somewhere else....iv alwaz loved the sunshine,love the fluffy clouds...recently, with the unbearable heat, i think iv started to find comfort in the joy of rain clouds...the dark clouds becomes a soothing sight to the usually scorching sun....i still wanna thank god fer friends...my bestie, my princesses, my dancemates, where evry dance session becomes a gd laugh and greater motivation to work hard in the studio agn...ooh..and Congrats to daddie and mummie!! happy 27th anniversary!
Friday, May 18, 2007 / 1:06 AM
a brand new week at NIE that has went past in quite a twinkling of an eye...the stresses are definitely different...while i used to worry abt the lessons, and what im going to prepare etc..now im more focused on improving my pegagogies, listening to others' reflection and making mental notes about the changes or improvements i can make to my lessons...its been a fruitful and refreshing week!
the students have been msging me and leaving me msgs which im thankful for..cuz I know iv already started to miss teaching them..but i know they will all pass thru betta hands and i hope they will grow to love eng and hist more! Let this midyear be a lesson..results might have been disappting, but admittedly, it was a tougher den usual paper..the impt thing is change....you all have grown to love teh subject more, to work harder fer the subject and thats all dat matters really....its that attitude that will bring u far..i hope ul alwaz rem dat feeling of understding the subject and being able to apply your knowledge during the exams...rem dat pride ok....and keep working hard!
its my turn to be working hard too..to be preparing fer lessons which i can fersee coming my way...Ms Lin been bz picking up pieces in her life...like going back to what i used to do , dancing, yet continuing to meet up with dear frenz..juz had a very gd day out with bingz princess...many gd buys...many small things which made us happy, such as cookies and cream milk shake...and the rain clouds which brought in cool nice weather....
its my constant prayer these days, asking god to keep me on the right track as i teach, to make me a better listener...to keep my hope and motivation alive..and i hope to all u out dere, frenz or students...dat ul find more hope in ur life...to keep u happy and blessed...hugz to all
Tuesday, May 15, 2007 / 10:15 PM
back to NIE..back to the days of being blur about the confusing timetable..or perhaps, im the only one confused...lessons are mor meaningful now, since we've all had our share of experiences from practicum...haha..silly ones...heartbreaking ones, frustrating ones...yup all pile up to make all these young teachers learn...be it the hard way or easy way...undeniably, we've all gained alot, grew up a little....haha but back to the classroom, with us as students now...can still be quite a challenge...admittedly, ms lin is still dat restless rascal in class..but a gd multitasker at that..ahah so u all shld learn! learning korean at the back of the class while still listening out fer Mis D's impt pointers abt each lesson....*sniggers*intended to flood this entry with mothers' day pix...took many with my baobei sis, jolly fatty mum, dad, uncles, aunties and fave cousins.....it was truly a day well spent..cuz subsequently, the princesses dressed up fer a choir perf at the Victoria Concert Hall...Sounds like an atas day?well it was! haha we were dressed nice enough fer a fancy dinner..hahah tho we did end up at esplanade with a simple meal at ichiban boshi...we princesses still had to take public transport home...such a humbling end to a great day..bt the company was great....the activities were enjoyable and memorable...so ya, CHEERS to a great family. Kai. and Princesses!The priest shared a very meaningful sermon yesterday...he said the greatest battle was within...Father Stephen shared about how mother's spend their time nagging but all fer the good to mould the insides of each child...to bring them up the right way, moral, compassionate and kind, undistracted by temptations...such a tough job, but they always try their best unfailingly...thanks mummy...my jolly mum whom iv grown closer to in recent years...thanx fer being dat mummy who understds, who listens who allows me to be a child and whine in front of u...Thank you for being God's messenger in advising me, sheltering me from the harshness of this world, providing joy, smiles and innocence in this real world....thanx fer letting me see how one can continue in goodness, holiness and kindness even in a world where things dun go the way we want...where ppl fail us...thanx fer being my hope, dat i can be a hope and sunshine to others too...i love u mummy...i love you fer nv giving up on me..and as a teacher now..i hope il alwaz haf your strength and tolerance..to never give up on any student...oh and to my history students...did you know the history behind mothers' day?? well it started during the American Civil war where many sons were sent to the battlefield as soldiers, fighting on different sides..yet the feelings of mothers were the same, out there was their son fighting, fighting death...Mothers' prayed fer the war to end, and as a consolation, this woman Anne Grieves i think, started this day, to unite mothers, in letting them realize that they were not alone, dat different as the soldiers were, on different sides of the war, the mothers shared similar experiences of fear and anxiety....so yeah! c history IS and ALWAYS will be relevant...so DONT EVER GIVE UP ON IT!Miss you guys...i know its results week..and i know the fears..which is good, because i assume, u fear cuz u worked hard n u wanna do well..so il b praying hard fer all of u k...every single one....we lead different lives...but i thank god that he let our paths crossed.....silence..and occasional sense of loss...we are best frenz...alwaz?
Saturday, May 12, 2007 / 3:07 AM
my ct, kelvin...the cool hod whom i respect alot....bzbz man...bt capable.....
my prac mates...calling them colleagues would be too formal...after all...u dunno wad monkey business we gt up to...hahah they are a great bunch to be with...last day in zhss and all are rushing their markings...tsk tsk
...mr ong is nt pleased with the chem exams...........
sa
Friday, May 11, 2007 / 2:48 PM
it felt like christmas in summer...since pictures paint a thousand words..il let the pictures do the talking for me...But guys..Thanks once again...4N1...hahah it was a real gd laugh..Very touched when u all greeted me fer the last time..sad, but hey...it was good while it lasted so no regrets....
Thursday, May 10, 2007 / 11:59 AM
wad do u do wen exams ended at 10am..but ure stuck in school....welll..u can blog...haf coffee with the students....several batches of them...den haf lunch agn with your colleagues....you can play postman and post secret notes to your classes....you can disturb you fellow colleagues who are bored marking mid year papers...haaha....Me?..i did all of that...HIAKSfeel like a cheeky kid today..like any of my students..on this warm, thurs afternoon...im feeling restless, i wana go hm...i dun wana be wearing teacher clothes...i wana go out, chill pill.. relac jac..haha..okok..Ms Lin shld mind her language...
well random and restless as im feeling, im feeling very happy...the power of the students....they wun ever noe...but they can mk or break my day...and fer this period...even as they are having exams, they've been making my day....
gt alot of angels to thank...small angels in uniforms...small angels whom i c along the corridors, punished outside the G.O, whom i smile at while i invigilate the class...angels in teacher clothes, sitting at the same table as me...thanx fer your company the past 10 weeks...fer the frenships, fer the support...its been great cuz of the friendly funny prac mates i had in zhonghua..and i thank god fer you all..kai....gd luck fer ur show this sunday! Manda and Mummy..thankz fer putting up with my nonsense...we are very different ppl..bt im glad we work out together...heehee
Also..i think God must really have been looking my way all this time...in fact, nt juz looking my way, it does feel like he has been shining HIS spotlight on me all this while in zhonghua...Practicum is really over fellas! its really back to THE VILLAGE in Boon Lay...where it feels like we need a passport to get there....arrrrrgh.....okok shant start complaining...maintain the angelic miss lin moment...
There was a moment in time where practicum looked too daunting to survive, where the responsibilities of a teacher felt too heavy to carry..There were so many moments where Ms Lin fumbled, more moments where i felt like," Shit...so they understand what im saying?? I hope im not messing them up...." Practicum has seeen so many faces of Ms Lin, be they sad, angry, frustrated, disappointed, happy, encouraged....and though practicum has been an undeniably trying experience, these diverse moments are what makes every sec memorable....When i think back on my insecurities, i see how strongly god has pulled me through....The journey wasnt alwaz dark, but all of us feared that the end wld be...and time has proven that weak as we think we are, we are worthy enough....Thank You for the light at the end of this journey, for the angelic faces which has made this experience meaningful....
To all my students....Im VERY thankful for your encouragements..the e-cards...the notes...the bdae wishes...the Thankyous, the smiles...the greetings i gt wen i c you....1N1, 1E6,2E6, 4N1 will alwaz be very special because you're my practicum students....during this stressful time for me, I think iv gained alot of strength from friendships iv forged with you. Whether or not, iv made and impact, whether or not you've enjoyed my lessons, i hope you have learnt sumthing from me....jus as i have learnt from you..i cant say enough of how much i appreciate the laughter, jokes and funny moments we've shared..but believe me when i say...u ALL motivate me to be even better, work even harder...and i hope that all of you will work hard too to find YOUR JOY AND SATISFACTION in your future....All the best to you all! who have survived a tough week of exams! Play hard during the Hols!Things are really back on track...and i hope nutting sways this...My rational mind will keep me grounded...my job will keep me focused and my students will keep me working hard....my flabs remind me to dance hard..my frenz and family remind me of the greatest reason to smile...Cause God gave me a life to enjoy his blessings evryday...Muacks! Happy and Delighted.
wen the dancer is bored...when she doesnt wanna sleeeep nor roll around in bed....she starts digging through that messy wardrobe......haha...laff all you want....the teacher is a gal at heart
Tuesday, May 08, 2007 / 9:58 AM
had to post pics of this lil superstar...this superstar made me laff wen i was not too happy....this superstar is called Julian Choong...nephew of a certain gorgeous hot babe best fren of mine...and i know he will mk those we read this entry smile too..hez a real sweetheart..alwaz chuckling...sadly hez back in the States now...im his
No. 2 Fan..second to his gugu...haha
from boys...to men...
...click click click......a feast for my eyes......fingers tapping at exactly the same buttons repeatedly...but this routine is a joy in itself...cuz ms lin is almost back to being michelle...being the clown...the DBSK fangal.....iv been getting DBSK pix...and soaking in happiness...happy that i can contribute back to Ms Tan who has been very giving of her fotos....
its 3 days to the official end of practicum..reminders to hit the studio agn, time to work those flabs off chelle...been enjoying too muhc havnt u...but fatty coach alwaz says....."ure happy wen u eat right....so juz eat loh.." hahah yah....bt its more than juz looks..im hitting the studio cuz i need to find back that discipline to work my ass off...be gd at sumthing...work hard at sumthing.....
weekends without lappies are great..its been a real stress relief the past few daes and im very thankful that god has blessed me with moments where i can day dream, look at the stars, without having to stress about undone work......so yeah.i shld be a happy gal....
still feeling the love...still feeling the bliss, still thinking back on fri and sat and the many moments which made me feel like a princess.....i wanna keep this feeling close.......in this chaotic world, which doesnt alwaz leave us satisfied, or doesnt make us feel gd enuff abt ourselves...we alwaz need ppl ard us to remind us that we are all worth being loved...if nt by one...its by another......
gazing at my kids while they were pondering over their exam scripts......couldnt help bt think back on the times i struggled with them, scolded them...the times i was a clown with them, being laughed at by them...the times they came to me, trusting that i know...but sumtimes, i didnt know the definite answer myself.....im gonna miss them....frm the sec 1s...to my dear sec 2s...and the sec 4s.....the ones i walk into class fearing...fearing they are not learning....the ones i walk into class and they are sleeping....well....u all left alot of good memories...and i can see how god has blessed me with evry class i went into this entire practicum....
starting to love my life agn...starting to find that spring and satisfaction in my evryday...to c sunlight coming thru the dark clouds....cuz i know im surrounded by angels.....
well but not evryone is your angel chelle....sum ppl juz dun belong to you....
Sunday, May 06, 2007 / 10:48 PM
princesses!!! hahah though no longer at starbucks...hahah since the term is coming to an end..havent felt so relaxed in a long time....so we treated ourselves to buffet and ktv at kbox! perfect!hahah...thanx alien and princesses fer sharing my special day too...im very thankful fer these teachers in my life to remind me 
to persevere in my job..huggies!
pressies from 1e6......plus a cake which has been finished and fed amongst the class....thanx guys...dunno wad else to say...fer today, they were in charge of the classrm...they off the lights and up popped up sheena with a cake.....man, wad a grt way to start the bday weekend...thanx guys....and rem, my hot date with my bestie...welll it turned out to be more company!! hahha THANKEW BLASTARDS!!! hahhaha nutthing like dat familiar old (literallly!) company....appreciate all the effort..especially dearie miss chooonggggggg!!! chuuubzzz!! thanx so much!!! her coordination din juz end there.....while sending me home...someone suddenly came up with tummy ache..so she had to come to my plc....and guess wad, when the lift door opened, there was a glowing bag right outside my door.......following shortly was a stampede coming from the stairs...hahah the BUGGIES!!! hahhaha andy, cindy, xiaomei, xuan and Uncle Marcus!!!! muaaacccks!! thanx guys! 
I FEEEL SOOOO LOVED!!
...mr ong is nt pleased with the chem exams...........
sa
No. 2 Fan..second to his gugu...haha
to persevere in my job..huggies!
