Wednesday, March 31, 2010 / 9:22 PM
let me fly as high as the wind can carry
a kite suspended in the wind
away and above the world below
let the ballad in my head
soothe the rain outside
a heavy downpour to a gentle drizzle
let not my heart be fragile
let not it break
let not my heart stop laughing
let not my tears fall
turn my face away from the sun
so the tears wont glisten
close my eyes
so you wont see the hurt
shut my heart, keep it locked away
so it wont know what's pain
::run away.hide away.fly away::
a little touch of bliss
when the first raindrops fell
then a trickle of students appeared.
willing, trying, asking
all in the hopes of completing what i asked
then heaven's floodgates opened
a heavy downpour
a hassle for most
as students hurried on their way,
sheltered or unsheltered
only one, a black dot among the green,
could not wait to step foot out of the gates,
into her playground of rain
god must have heard her wish somehow
and granted it on a long dreary day
and wish granted,
longings heard...
she could only be--blessed.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010 / 9:11 AM
she holds her breathand takes another gulp of patiencea lump rose in her throat, her eyes flickered slightly, in attempt to blink away the tears that were forming her lips quivered, so she bit down harder, to stop herselfjust before the tears could fallshe maintained her dignityunwilling to seem defeatedthe endless war she fights, eroding all the good from yesterdayjust hang in there,even if your nails are scrapping the edgejust hang in thereuntil the sun peeps out of the looming cloudsjust hang in therebecause you always believed that god would push you up somehow.just hang in therebecause you're Michelle and Michelle wouldn't not hang in there."it is in your weakness, that I am strong," God replied.
sometimes, it's so easy to laugh
with the right company, some honesty and some trust
so easy to chase away a day's worth of burden and baggage
i hope Happiness finds me as easily everytime.
*dear god, please grant this wish of mine*
Thank you
Monday, March 29, 2010 / 1:28 PM
she mutters under her breath repeatedly, "pray, just pray, just pray..."
"god doesn't give us walls we can't climb", wise words indeed...
BUT damn these walls! ;( :( :( :( :(
*miss lin's patience is tested to its limit. and it's only Monday.*
remind me please
someone, anyone,
of my purpose here please...
rollercoaster goes downnnn, way down today.
Sunday, March 28, 2010 / 4:15 PM
i nv quite thought myself to be amazing
but to be called that,
to know that i can teach others, my simple happy ways
wow...reminds me that God still has a purpose for keeping me alive on this Earth.
and you may not know it
but you allowed me to see God in you
in the way you behave,
the person you are
the strength u embody within
and the choices u make
reminds me time and again,
that there's so much hope left in this world
we just need to look in the quiet corners.
thanking many small people, big people, people of all sizes,
for dropping into my life, carrying with them
parcels of love, hope, strength and encouragment,
*plus parcels carrying pretty handbags, earrings and shoes*to always keep this little, plushy missus
smiling, grinning, laughing, pleased with every aspect of her life
even when she looks at what she has lost
the little missus can safely say
"Life's still good, somehow!"
especially with all these tunes that goes through her head,
to keep her feet tapping, head bobbing, smile growing
Friday, March 26, 2010 / 2:10 PM
a season for flowers. sent for different reasons
flowers to appreciate my hardwork. for laying out my gut and soul on stage.
but now, flowers, for simple day to day.
flowers to say, "i'm thankful for your friendship. i love you"
but no longer "You were great!"
but flowers for whatever reasons,
they still bring a smile to this slightly chubby face.
thanks bear. thanks for my favourite flowers in my recent favourite colour
Thursday, March 25, 2010 / 11:02 AM
lost in pachebel
her mind wanders slowly in the realm of music
treads along the edge of ballads
enjoying the vivid moments
of sharing a smile along the corridor
knowing she's not kept out
feeling like she's worth their time
glowing amber in the silence.even after the flame fizzles off
beyond the stage. beyond the glamour. beyond the applause
perhaps i forgot to remind you that u're irreplaceable in my life
perhaps i didnt tell you, that you never left my mind
perhaps you didn't know, that even when u're not around, and my gaze fall upon our pictures of old, i still smile at all the good memories
perhaps i didnt thank you for making it such a joy to love you.
perhaps, you might not chance upon this entry.
but just in case you do,
i'll never 'perhaps, i love you'
i will always, most certainly do. :), like how Tigger loves Pooh!
my mr yello fella...
you big guy with a big heart and big tum tum
i love u best because you're imperfectly perfect for me,
though perhaps you forgot that.
Took a little walk down memory lane,
Entangled in a mesh of feelings
Happiness entwined with pain
Sadness caught amid lost dreams
Regrets, satisfaction at different stages
I thought i almost forgot this.so well it hid awaythe broken pieces, swept aside
the feelings thrown to the wind but memories revisitedpain refresheda new sigh of resignationnot everything can be resolved or changedlife dont always make happy endings
Who ever said the walk down memory lane was neccessarily sweet?
What was left for a nostalgic reminisce?
Wednesday, March 24, 2010 / 3:12 PM
"Miss Lin! Are you on a
sugar high today?! You're crazy!"
couldnt help but grin back :)accents, laughter and jest
my ingredients to making them stay awake. listen. write.
in the last class of the day.
to laugh is natural. to laugh in class is a privilege
thank you not-old-enough-but-not-that-young people for giving this 27 yr old this privilege. told ya i miss y'all ;)
Tuesday, March 23, 2010 / 3:21 PM
the layers peel away, with time,
like rocks in the wind
at the heart of it
she peered at what was beneath
and it was not at all like how she imagined.
feeling like a deluded kid.
最近开时疑问自己
我所缺的, 不能完全帮到你.
但所懂的, 又足够吗?
暂时只能在原地锻炼自己
变成比现在更有自信, 更有办法
就不会只能站在这里
但带着不知所措的心情面对着你
我想走出这个困境
请你暂时拉我一把
相信我会渐渐学会自己所须的秘方
Sunday, March 21, 2010 / 4:32 PM
心有些定不下来的不安
不知所措的心情
让人感到厌烦.
:(
Saturday, March 20, 2010 / 11:24 PM
rain puts me in the perfect mood
to idly tap my fingers across the keyboard and put my thoughts into words.
i thought about Happiness today,
in a young boy's laughter.
He was sitting comfortably on his dad's shoulders,
and his hearty laughter resounded in the crowd
such simple joys
Happiness popped her head round the corner again
this time in a cup, Mango Calpis soda, it glowed a bright yellow.
A sip of it and it brought back the nights in Yokohama,
memories of Shinjuku and train stations
The light jazz music in the background started,
the mood around softened
and happiness brought me to a slow dance,
even if it's all imaginary,
just stirring me in my head
but that was good, for that moment.
i hope i'll always find Happiness in such simple doses.
never knew it would be
memorable. gratifying. heartwarming. swell.
3 days since it ended,
and there's still this warm, tingly feeling inside,
each time i'm reminded by their posts,
that i'm part of these good memories too.
awesome.
yellow. for my NCOs :)
Thursday, March 18, 2010 / 11:57 PM
at first a step, begrudgingly
then two, to get ahead, impatient to see where this leads
and a leap she takes, out of the window,
welcomed by the rays of light,
like her entrance of glory
she was made to fly, she thought she couldnt, she tried anyway and she did!
In 3 days, i teared and laughed, lectured and joked, acted as Miss Lin, then slipped back into being Michelle... it's been a real time of my life.
i'm torn up inside,
there's a stirring of both regret and satisfaction.
why only now and not earlier?
delirious from the successes of the camp
seeing it through, from start to finish
experential learning, they call it
as i fumbled my way around, weaknesses exposed,
but my bag of knowledge grew
she watched those who did it, easily, painlessly
and wondered why she didnt think of it earlier
she remembered what she forgot,
so she wouldnt forget it at the next turn
she used what she already had,
and gained all that she could
however,
if only it wasnt so late in the year
their second year,
their last year, and last project.
regret to say, i could only love you guys so late.
but thank you still,
for reminding me why i'm here, who i am, and what im capable of doing
Friday, March 12, 2010 / 11:13 AM
life's joys can come in different sizes and at the most unexpected moments.
bliss caught me today, when the skies outside was still dark
i opened up my pearl white netbook,
and a note, "pssssssst :)" smiled back at me.
You sure know how to start my day
Monday, March 08, 2010 / 9:58 PM
I need to dance.
to move and tease
to smile with ease.
I need to dance.
I look on in envy at what they can do
and wish i was back in my hey days too.
I need to dance.
to smile at who's watching
to charm those watching
to win you into looking at me
to move as the music tells me so.
Where i stand today, i see you in full sight,
knowing exactly what i want to see, what to expect.
and you would value my suggestions, you would listen.
for once, after all the waves of marking, churning out your papers and grades, Miss Lin is truly tired, overwhelmed, but also extremely satisfied.
