Friday, March 27, 2009 / 10:19 AM
blessed, bliss, lucky, happy, spring in my feet, smiles in my head, wonder.this about sums up what the little miss "
chicher" is feeling now.
- conversations with the yello fella,
- seeing the girls through the dance competition
- spending hilarious moments with the sec 3 squad on the bus
- my promotion :)
- managing to finish the admin aspect of my work
- and more "future talk" with martian.
maybe this leaves you with more question marks in your head. but it's alright, when you see the joy on my face, u would understand that it doesnt matter whether you understand it at all.
more plans on the way.
2 days away, 2 months, 2 years.
many things now on my plate to look forward to.
in the next 2 seconds, i know exactly what il do to make my friday brighter--a sip of my iced cuppa, listen to that favourite tune.
yep, the little missus is beaming already
Tuesday, March 24, 2009 / 11:07 PM
What has been on repeat on my podie
可以吗
让我和你对调
希望换成你爱我爱的快要疯掉
知道吗
你对我多重要
只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱
爱随着风飘荡飘过了你嘴角
飘到天涯海角
把我困在这城堡
哪里也逃不了
我不要别人温柔的怀抱
听不见你的心跳
连我熟悉的味道
再也闻不到
我只要你爱我一次就好
从浅浅你的暗号
我想再次亲耳听到
可以吗
让我和你对调
希望换成你爱我爱的快要疯掉
知道吗
你对我多重
要只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱
爱随着风飘荡飘过了你嘴角 飘到天涯海角
把我困在这城堡 哪里也逃不了
我不要别人温柔的怀抱
听不见你的心跳
连我熟悉的味道 再也闻不到
我只要你爱我一次就好 从浅浅你的暗号
我想再次亲耳听到
我不要别人温柔的怀抱
要你真实的依靠
那是短暂止痛药
很快会失效
你只要再哄我一次就好
让我可以很骄傲
记住我拥有过的好
记住在你怀里微笑
iv been flipping through pages of memories,
just days before.
the weekend before the real hustle bids
no farewell to good times
i want to make them stay
not a sacrifice but to interweave
maybe longer nights, shorter sleep
but one night of talk
and part two of another
over steamboat in the quietest hours of the night
where most of the island lies asleep
we are there, hand in hand, seated by the quietening,
just talking, like we rarely do
not one day, but two
one night then another
chix and wedges in the comfort of plushie sofas, airconditioned sets in coffee club
perfection of a weekend, almost too good to be true
but when the rush starts
can we preserve these golden hours
even when im running back and forth these wheels
im near perfection, exactly what i want
yet i cant reach perfection, cuz im still fulfilling what they want.
but you are at least a part of my perfection. i want you. and i think iv got you right here.
lucky me. :)
in between heaves of relief.
i need to focus on what iv already got.
Monday, March 16, 2009 / 7:26 PM
knowledge gives power.
but knowing also gives you guilt.
should i feel guilty for staying up late, catching the latest ep of my favourite drama?
when did i start feeling guilty for pursuing my bite sized happiness?
frustrations. rationalized. swallowed.
like a bitter pill
it's only right by whose standards?
that we plough within these cubicles.
that we listen to the scroll-long list of mindless reminders and instructions
that out of obligation, i have to look out for the latest emails,
that i stop even having the choice of whether i wanna touch my laptop.
"there's a choice of course. Yea, of course, it'll just be my fault when i don't get what you want done."
thank god, my colleagues are more than bearable.
so why am i ranting here.
perhaps, deeply seated within is the frustrations that it's the march hols and i can't slack without feeling guilty,
perhaps, though officially school ends at 2.30 pm, marking and preparation never quite ends.
perhaps because i have to plan every holiday around the school calendar,
that even my choice to take leave when i want, where i want is dependant on where you decide to put me when.
on top of that,
you get crazy parents ranting at you at 9am on a Saturday morning
calling you irresponsible,
screaming in the background that you don't deserve to be a teacher.
and inside you,
the myriad of languages is exploding
and you have to reduce it in the most polite tone you can muster, "im sorry, but i don't appreciate...."
in actual fact, all i wanted to say could be summed out in two classy words
FOXTROT OSCAR
*thanks to mr Bossy who taught me this*
cheers to the career that makes your skin dry and wrinkled
that at 26, when your friends are glowing,
you look old and tired.
at 40, you feel 50.
cheers.
Friday, March 13, 2009 / 6:03 PM
let me take a breather please.
from running to and fro, this desk to the next.
rushing places, but missing faces.
let me pause in my work to think.
not in full sentences and analysis
but short bursts of ideas, inspirations and idle thoughts.
let me smile from my heart
not to be PC or polite
but to laugh aloud, and smile really really wide
let me hold hands and take long walks
and enjoy the breeze and scenary
without nagging thoughts of this and that disrupting my enjoyment
Miss Lin is burnt out.
without a break until May.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009 / 6:53 AM
i couldnt have had a better end to my day.
just you, me and my favourite telly.
the simplest pleasures of life now,
minimal cost, but maximum joy
just having you right beside
sharing the laughter in between.
and in the car,
i get to sing my favourite tune.
the lines of song, sung all wrong
but it works anyway,
we guffaw, forgetting the seatbelt.
the daily humdrums of the little teacher's life
whoever said it had to be dull
though tests wait to be marked and results keyed in
im still making the best of it.
*uber pleased*
awaited,
watched,
crept into the cosy hours of the night
fabulous start to my week, end to my day. :)
