Saturday, February 07, 2009 / 2:00 AM
woke up at an obnoxious hour today. 12.45am. all the discipline and list of to-dos for the weekend gave way to the fatigue accumulated throughout this week. nothing in me wanted to wake up. in reality i knew, my body already concussed before i hit the pillows.
my first time clocking 12 hr work days, 5 days, in a week.
work-life balance? nil.
i am upset by it, the lack of time and place to do my core duty--prepare lessons
this week, tests saved me.
but come next week, what would be my excuse.
i realise the reason why i dont want to take up higher positions, or go on the fast track.
i dun want to sleep through the velvet sky, or miss the stars which sparkles at night
i dun want to rush from point to point, achieving your objectives and not mine
i dun want to have a checklist at the back of my head, nagging at me 24-7
i want to have time, to pause and think of frivolous things which makes me happy
i want to fall aslp after 2 hrs of drama serial
i want to wake up to saturday, feeling refreshed,
not worrying abt the amount of work i need to clear
so i close this tired week 5,
still seeing students on saturday morning, (the bonus: im dancing with them)
with 80 eng essays, 80 hist test papers, and lessons to plan for wk 6.
just for now, let me wonder,
when will this week to week frenzy end?
The Girl Inside
Michelle,
seeking the best in her, yet looking at her best days unfolding right before her at the same time.
contact her at: inspiremydance@hotmail.com
"It's not how hard you fall, but how hard you fight back."
Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.
~endless time in the studio
~more cuppa time with dearlings
~travel more places
~dressing up
~getting that diver's license by 2009
