Tuesday, December 30, 2008 / 9:45 AM
some people dragged their feet to work today,
i was driven.
some people gossiped about colleagues they didnt like,
the same they did yesterday and the day before that,
i felt loved being back in school.
Monday blues may have hit you bad today,
it left me quite alone..
Along with the rest of the schooling population in AMK,
i was swept away by Bedtime Stories,
reminded of the vastness of a child's imagination,
and became more resolute.
i will always read to my kids.
i want to paint another world for children
and escape into it myself
i want to always remember,
"the world is my playground"
and embrace life with spontaneity and forthrightness
i want to achieve dreams i spin, and even if i don't,
i don't fall too far below
i want to...i want to...i want to....
i want to.
and therefore
i will.
Monday, December 15, 2008 / 12:11 PM
"so blessed! i can't contain it! so much, i gotta give it away! your love's taught me to live now!you are more than enough for me!!"staying away and having the retreat was possibly the best thing that happened to me this yr...
like a child whose eyes opened to the lights of Christmas eve
whose hands feasted on the unwrapping of gifts
whose heart was touched by the warm fuzzies and new friendships...
and who is amazed when she sees the work of the Lord.
another step towards my favourite time of the year,
though i cant leave footprints in snow
nor feel snowflakes on my lashes
tho there's no chance to wear leather gloves
nor skip around in new boots
Butthankful for my prayers, answered
and for the new friends which came my way
thankful for being able to do Your work right next to my dear
for the tears which flowed, pain felt and the comforting renewal after that
thankful for the loved ones i come home to
and for the chance to finally catch The Nutracker with you
if Christmas was a time of prayer and thanksgiving
and surrounding ourselves with our loved ones,
if it was a season to reconcile and reminisce
all the bittersweet memories of this year
if Christmas was to give others the best of me, in small lil doses,
then Christmas '08 came a lot earlier for me :)
so i get more than 12 days eh! :)
Monday, December 01, 2008 / 10:21 AM
it becomes a consolation when world matters consume me. for a second.
fear, terror, sympathy, can only last so long and matter so much.
my problems can be cast a gazillion lightyears away, in the face of unrest, chaos and danger unleashed in other countries.
safe here. loved here.
a lie which i do not want to be a part of, though you make me.
why do you do what your father did, to your very own?
how can you walk and live the lies, and expect to be respected
when i look into your eyes, i fail to see
_ _ _, that used to be
i cringe away from your touch
i run away from your love
i thought of breaking it to you the gentle way.
"i know, and i wish you'd stop it"
but i lack the guts to do so, to say so, to confront you honestly, brutally
so long in so many years.
you leave me speechless. helpless in what i should, can, or must do.
for that,
i really hate you.
