Monday, September 29, 2008 / 11:31 AM
Look...the sun sets, Kim Junsu
After the after glow sets,
I'm going towards you,
Following the lights which turn on one by one
I'll embrace you,
Before the cold wind makes your shoulders flinch
I love you,
The foolish you,
You're so precious to me
As much as the sun that rises above you,
I'll keep you safe as much as you've waited for me, with this glaring heart,
All the dreams I've prayed for,
They're going towards you with my sincere scent
I hope that my wishes of smiling next to you every new morning,
Will be able to come true
I'll wait for you,
I'll never let go of your hands,
Even if it's only tears,
I'll wipe them away for you
Although we are not able to see the end,
No matter how bumpy our road is,
I'll promise you, please be mine
More than the air I breathe,
'I love you' 'You're the only one',
I want to yell those words
The past two weeks have been incredible. Noticing more of his lil gestures, how he would look longer into my face, and how he'd read my feelings and thoughts. Like Edward, the lastest fictional character in my life. *Junsu aint fictional, and he's eternal. Latest, don't quite cut it. :P*
It's amazing how things change over time. Hearts grow fonder, flaring tempers cool off. The tug of war, over understanding, compromising and accepting, isnt all so pleasant nor peaceful.
Quite nostalgic raking up stories of 2007 and 2006. Another year has rolled us by, since you came home, since we first spoke, after a longgg time...Painful moments, anger, doubt and mistrust. Insecurity, betrayal, hate. Patience, gratitude, forgiveness. It's a painting of emotions on a rough edged canvas. Every day that passes contains lil memories of you and i. Progress in our work, dance, music, friends, families, dreams and hopes, future. We've walked just another year, dear.
all i can say is, it's getting sweeter, like a cosy walk in autumn New York. Or should i say, spring in Japan? :O)
Wednesday, September 17, 2008 / 12:16 AM
Things that make me happy these days
having jem to hold my hand...
having back my dance mates, music and the stage to keep me high and flying
stepping back into circles ive missed out on the past year
working with fabulously talented, fun-loving new peeps
and realising what truly makes me happy :)
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 / 1:04 AM
when the closest people hurt you, they inflict more than a tear in your heart.
they make you question your existence, your significance in this world
if the closest people can hurt you, it just makes evryone else in this world untrustworthy doesnt it?
and since theres no one you can trust, then why am i still living in this world?
f*** you for tearing my world apart
f*** you for letting me see what pain is
f*** you for making me feel what hesitations, lies bring to relationships
it's not the first time, and i cant stop you
but you are just you now, not dad any longer
Friday, September 12, 2008 / 9:56 AM
Taurus Daily Love Horoscope
Friday, September 12
A change of scenery may be just what you need to revitalize your romantic life. Don't let a stagnant lifestyle keep you from achieving romantic bliss. Get out there and make some changes. hey yello, got the hint fello?? :))morning mass to end my workweek, and pray a blessed and successful performance the next two nights felt like the perfect way to start my day. :) feeling stars under my feet, and light not too far ahead...cant wait for the bell to ring...Go blastards!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008 / 11:19 AM
Our Talk
it's over a short meal we had, casually planned.
it wasn't suppose to be the highlight
but because of you, the company i missed so dearly,
it was.
sometimes we rush through words
sometimes we don't speak our minds
we lose a moment for understanding each other more
we spoke great lengths and depths,
we spoke what our hearts wanted to say
devoid of the emotions which sometimes get in our way
we spoke what our memories kept
we spoke of good times and bad
we spoke of now and looking back,
honesty brought us some realisation
god has planted something in us, that makes us stay
yet sometimes we choose to shut it out and walk away
we could both to be less difficult, more giving sometimes.
this talk we had, taught us something last night
We could treat each other better
keep the respect, dignity and faith
because above life's various trials
we know that we'll stick together somehow.
keeping the faith :)
Monday, September 08, 2008 / 5:20 PM
could i be more contented than i am now? i wonder, while sipping that iced cuppa. to call my present life a blessing doesnt quite amount to all that bliss i feel inside.
the renewal of friendship with two friends i thought id lost forever. To begin chatting again, from small things, from everyday things....like taking baby steps to rebuilding foundations which crumbled in the past. the renewal of love. to learn to love again, yet not be afraid to love. to learn to love right, and give, for the best of the other.something just clicked. the greatest thing one can give to another is a second chance. the most difficult, yet most beautiful thing one can receive is forgiveness. so il treasure every bit of this..and work it right this time.
god bless this lil one, with the big tum tum..
Sunday, September 07, 2008 / 11:21 PM
it's the little things in life, the sparkles of magic which chases away the dread and inertia. The things which lights up the
xian lil me. :) Today, all i needed was a caramel latte, my lappie, my musik, and familiar company. even holding hands and dozing off..even hearing from nicole lim that she was going shopping with pops for her ITouch. LOVE---YOU drop these lil sweet nothings from corners and crannies, and made me smile. :)
from jeremy to michelle
-dear, that's all i needed... :)
Saturday, September 06, 2008 / 11:22 PM
i've been living my dreams. getting back the rest that i need.
Been smiling more, though there were tears.
In the end, when we look back,
it's always the hope and dreams ahead which keeps us going
i know it's surreal, this life i have now
i must have done something right somehow, somewhere...
thanks for taking the first move to talk to me again dear
i hope we walk back the path we once did,
where we shared hopes, dreams and fears
I hope years down the road,
the little one will still call you precious, and adore you like i do
chubby friends come once in a lifetime.
the two people who would ever know me best
pls chubby ones in my life now,
dun go leaving me anywhere else ok :)
