Thursday, March 27, 2008 / 11:20 PM
it's the end of another week..
long and tired
don't remember many good lessons this week
felt the tightness of my face
as i drew that usual smile into an unforgiving line
sometimes, a sneer
but mostly, just the exasperation
at the same faces who refuses to listen, to pay attention when i'm making an important point
worse, who distracts their friends from listening to me when i'm making an important point
but, the end point is,
i can walk away this week,
not thinking about you, your behavior and your severe desire for attention
i'm not the one who will fail the test today or next week
so if you think i'm gonna kill myself, thinking and fretting that you will fail,
sorry, you're wrong. in case you forgot, i don't owe it to you when your brain fail to choose to listen
On a totally different note, the past week would have been unbearable if not for the afternoons where i can run into your escape and hideaway, Thanx love
Tuesday, March 25, 2008 / 11:36 PM
bliss is just looking across the table and seeing you there
It is being able to smile and fall in love with the sight of you,
yes, even when you have tight, lil wrinkles, as you frown at your work.
Bliss is knowing i'll go home to you jogging, and me marking in bed.
and keeping in mind the words which you said earlier
Bliss is knowing that you are falling deeper in love with me
and knowing that i'm not delusional
Bliss is having you wait for me as i whine at my runny nose,
or when i see you struggling with that huge bowl of rice at my house,
knowing you're trying to do things right because of me
yes, im in bliss,
soaked to my skin
my friends say i look happy,
and the best part is, i feel the way i look!
and even with the easter dat has passed,
im glad we listened and spent dat moment with god,
together.
Now when the skies are clear, when the wind gently blows
i think of you
and leave those baggages of worries and stress behind in my cubicle
and i wander into your arms of comfort, your words which de-stress
and in this bliss, God bless me with thoughts of missing my other dearlings
like you, you and you.
thanx for the company, dates and laughter
to the sweet, skinny, old, familiar and long time to come.
Friday, March 21, 2008 / 11:46 AM
thank you,
that's all i can say
it doesn't express the volumes of comfort i have,
doesn't quite measure up to what i'm feeling,
as i sit and enjoy the breezy morning, whilst thinking back on you.
Suppers can be such simple affairs
yet it can be made into such elaborate memories
when you bring you to cozy bay,
when we laugh over fries and water
when we soak in the serenity of the night
when we share secrets in nature's silence
when we chat about the day to day,
planning the weekend that is to come
yet feel the lil smiles and connection in the unseen
and there's waking up next to someone so dear,
being treated like a princess
being called a godsend
wow..thank you..
for this godsend, finds you perfect.
just the way i like it.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008 / 12:13 AM
sometimes, it's good to be a little late
they always say, better late than never.
Like watching Leap Years
it's coming to the end of March, and i've only just caught it
but hey, it's still a great show..
and it left many afterthoughts
like reexamining my life through this other lens
i think to myself
it's good to be a little late
like how people weave in and out of your life
yes, you included.
but after weaving in and out,
you decided you'll stop right here beside me
You're a tad late,
since i've known you all these years
but hey, i'm glad i waited
just that little while longer
:) aishiteru, my jap monster
Monday, March 17, 2008 / 5:40 PM
Many complain about the week long holiday that has passed,i almost did, having experienced lot of inertia, waking up to another week, a new school termbut looking back on my week..i think i couldnt have spent it in a much better fashion. It felt good having my own time again, meeting all the groups of darlings whom god has showered on me, but i've neglected due to work commitments, CCA, dates etc.So many bits of memories of you and me to smile about, to feel that deep gratitude for. There's chilling out at Mr Pak's family hotel bucks with dear libing, preparing work for the new term, watching her practice japanese. Remembering that awe that she had time to take up something else seriously outside her already busy schedule. There was that shopping date with Carolyn and the coffee afterward with Wee Keat. Dear, i'm really happy for you, to see that settled man taking care and watching out for you. There was meeting up with dear yongxi and jj...a simple lunch, a simple coffee date at night, just calling you there and meeting up the next sec...for being there, even to do nothing, even when there's no special purpose. Just simply for the friendship over the past years.of course i also have to mention how i went shopping and good-food eating with dearie berd! haha it was a blast, and of course i bought stuff, which i could envision that martian frowning upon...i mean, all pretty stuff (with my taste, i wouldnt risk frowns for less) but like what they say, "you don't need it, just want it." well since i want it, i buy it right! :) it's pretty and it makes me happy, and it's the hols. so yah, sue me if you wanna press on this argument. and the last bits of the hols was basking in the sun, feeling that soft, velvety sand beneath the calloused toes. I'd never take for granted not doing anything. Not even if i spent my weekend, on my island getaway just reading in bed, or by the pool, or feeling that light drizzle as i read by the beach. Then there was the buffet dinners and desserts which gave me a sugar rush. and appreciating waking up to that silly martian and love of my life. That fella whom i want to hide next to for the 3 days..and some say 30 years..heh. just some pics to show you my blissful moments,
Being in the arms of my favourite boy
Feels like heaven, even if it's just an evening pre-dinner stroll along the beach
my 3 days of paradise because of you
Lots of love, hobz
Wednesday, March 12, 2008 / 12:12 AM
i miss the sudden outbursts and the familiar facesi miss seeing you and smiling into your eyes, from the corners of the roomi miss being that close and being led, yet knowing we are only lovers on the outsidei miss the bass in my heart and the steps in my mind.i miss the fun, long hrs and late nightsi miss you, dance.i almost forgot how much i loved you once before.and even as i found new loves in my life,you were really never too far behind...and i want you back,not just beside,but inside, bringing back the greatest joy in my lifei want you to recover the old merather i want to recover you, in me. michie fatty, dun ever stop the feet.
Saturday, March 08, 2008 / 6:12 PM
touchie touchie, dance dance..feeling only the rhythm and beat in my heart all my senses were heightened, letting my skin feel the atmosphere, the cheers of the audience,allowing my mind to fill with only the music and the drumming of the bassmy space on stage, only determined by the ones around me, feeling sexy, and wanting to arouse..the audience and you.
with the first flip of our heads, the flying of our extensions
we were on.
no smiles
just alot of attitude
and knowing the style that should belong for this piece.
i loved every bit of it
from the lil diamantes in my falsies
the tightness of my hair
to the choreo,
the steps,
the style
the people.
The people. you guys kicked ass!!!
i don't how we do it,
year in year out, the same faces
4th year dancing together already
thanks, for all the memories,
proud and sweet.
and i stopped being the teacher today
i was back to who i loved to be,
longed to be.
and i wish,
really hard.
that i'll have more of these days
being that dancer,
twirling in the studio.
for your rose and your love
your smile and your presence.
it's the thing i treasure most in sch
and to the one all decked and dressed to kill
you stole all my limelight.
couldnt take my eyes off you
Friday, March 07, 2008 / 6:59 PM
again another evening sky. quiet:: peaceful::beautiful
and at once the familiar coziness comes welling up
in trickles, then in bouts,
when the image of you comes to mind,
at the the sound of your laughter, echoing at the back of my head.
a year ago, during this time, this phase
while i was still new, green and fresh
waddlin somewhat clumsily, slowly at other times in the new ball game of teaching
you were in the opposite end of the hemisphere,
soaked in the climate of another.
Distanced.
That's how i kept you.
Far.
at the back of my mind.
until emails started coming in,
a hello at first,
then a sentence,
and soon we were emailing back and forth again,
the chemistry which never faded, the friendship that resurfaced
a gentle smile, brimming with awkwardness, unease, uncertainty.
i'm glad that's us, in the days that had passed.
i'm glad it's you now, with your arms around me,
i'm glad it's that martian grumble i wake up to
im glad it's your ears my complains and whines fall on
i'm glad that God decided that it was you and now.
Our lil moments,
over food, drinks, friends, drama serials,
become my pushing force
to be better in sch,
to smile more,
laugh more.
i couldnt ask for more.
My dad who chats with me on msn,
making sure im okay
my bubbly mummy,
juz being very honest, caring and loving
My granny who takes time to iron and tidy my stuff
and you, who has taken on this multi role as friend, nurse, boyfriend, chef and chauffer
i dunno what i would do without you...
oops..now thats a danger.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008 / 3:51 PM
i give up..
passwords fail me
so much that i don't even want to be bothered by them
why should i really subject my life to the whims and fancy of technology and their failures.
I can live without getting your emails.
Yes, you you and you.
your dissemination of information which im not bothered by,
your overemphasis on this and that,
making the smallest thing in the administration look like a matter of life and death.
forms after forms,
this to be signed and blah blah blah...
the tireless list goes on
the tired me shuts down
just needed to bitch abt how im wasting another beautiful chilly rainy afternoon,
being bothered by the endless complaints of how who and who cant log in, who and who has problems...
gawwwwwwwd..
do we have to waste such precious times?
sometimes, the simplicity of life is much more effective.
Many times, writing on the white board, without the fancies of powerpoint and all,
really makes them sit up and learn more.
*keeping my cool, counting my days..cant wait to get away, from the hustle and bustle of this and that.*
Monday, March 03, 2008 / 8:17 PM
got tired of counting the pelting raindrops...
falling...they just keep falling
but my heart wants to be out there..wants to bathe in the sunlight of my heart
i want to paint today all yellow, with a rainbow at the side
because he said:
got you in december...
il hold you till forever...
and that's all the sunshine the lil teacher needed :)
the rain fell in torrents today. but you brought in the warmth all the same.
Saturday, March 01, 2008 / 1:25 PM
even though the rain pelt down the entire morning,even though breakfast was not as yummy as i wished it to be,even though my eyes gave me problem and made you worried,it was still a beautiful, drizzling saturday beginning..you're beautiful to me,making my life blessed and freefree from the troubles and the pain,free from the downs and the banesThe road we take might be bumpy,but along this journey that we take,i won't forget the treats, laughter and jokes we makei'll carry our nano kisses, winks and twinkling facesand let you be the wind beneath my wingsil let you have the chore of lifting my heavy bellythis plump, plushie, fatty lil one, who's in deeper, love with you..martian, genie, pork chop, cash cow all in one.
