Friday, February 01, 2008 / 9:48 AM

What if you were told tomorrow you only had three months to live?
Or what if you lost your life overnight in a car accident which you friend never intended for?

Would whatever you are busy rushing through now, the emails you are replying, the sms-es you're sending out, the projects next month, your plans for next week, still be important?

When all the money you've been working hard for, cant extend your life even for a day. Will you still prioritize it as first place?

A 40 year old man, was diagnosed recently with stomach cancer. He was in his terminal stages, and had only 3 months to live. My mum shared this story with me, seeing that i was on MC the past 2 days, and reminding me that i really needed to take good care of myself. This was after i protested at my parents' comments that i was irresponsible for being on 2 day MC. When she reiterated the story to me, i asked myself, what would i do, and what would be important to me.

epms? work review? npcc schedules? hardly any cause for anxiety. I would not want these things to streak my remaining days with anxiety, panic, worries.

instead, i would want to head back to the studio everyday, work on every dancei could.

I would want to take this weekend, and pick up a beginner scuba diving course somewhere nearby.

i would want to be in the same kitchen as granny dear, and learn the recipes she has fed us with all these years. and i would want to cook these yummilicious dishes for the you.you and you.

i would want to travel for a month to europe, than 2 weeks to Japan, to experience spring, that being a teacher cant see.

I would accompany you in learning jap, so i can ramble with u, and haf u correct me, when im doing it all wrong. Maybe, il be wrong on purpose sometimes, just to have you show off that you know. :)

i would bring that lil hot sis of mine out, to shop till we drop, eat will we cant shop and later, watch her and my fav boy with his fav friends, play rounds of mahjong.

i would finally wake up in the wee hrs of the morning to accomany papa and watch him play golf.

I would finally wake up in the not so wee hours of the morning to catch the sunrise, go jogging, swimming, then watch the sunset.

I would apologize to all those i feel i owe, and love everyone else a dozen more times than usual.

I would want to talk to my students, not about their hair or attire, but their lives, their loves, their hates and anger. Those would be my greatest lessons, no lesson plans needed.

i would kiss my parents goodnight every night, just like in the old days, when i was 5.

I would go to all my dance teachers, Ms Lee, Pat, Ryan, Fen and tell them how much they have contributed to my life.

see, i knew if life was coming to an end, i wouldn't give two hoots about work and all the admin that gets me down and worried each weekend.

i don't know why im still bothering about it, maybe cuz you need to pass the exams, and i need my pay. maybe cuz like evryone else, im being a realist, im working within the system, not against it. mayb...just maybe

So, il try with this upcoming new year, to do more of those things i listed above. Not all, just more. and to remind myself to love life and all the moments god has blessed ms croaky toady with yesterday, today, and the days to come.

Friday, February 01, 2008 / 9:48 AM

The Girl Inside

Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.

Break The Silence

SOULMATES ON THIS JOURNEY

Never Forget Your Thank Yous

Memories