Sunday, December 09, 2007 / 11:39 PM
when i dance, im off my feet, im flying in my heart,
my mind is in my spirit,
i care about nothing, i care about no one.
My strides feel strong, you may not see it in your eyes,
but i feel it in my heartbeat, in my breath,
And im alive, so alive i feel as if i could go on forever
The adrenaline drains the rest of me,
after the music ends, after the beats rest
God truly indulged me today...in church, at dance, ktv....and yesh imman, even your sms reminded me of God's attention and love..
My fav priest gave homily today, on the Christmas tree as a symbol of God in our lives. Throughout mass, hymns and prayers answered what iv been praying and thinking about...and this Christmas, im asking God for a change of heart, a bigger, lingering heart, one without jealousy, or ill feelings.
Met happy faces at dance. Thanx pat, uncle marcus, for making my morning a good one...for making class a fun one, for making me precious, loved, treasured and for making me feel like the dancer i used to be in the studio...
Been getting lil moments of enlightenment dese days, about myself, what i used to be, what ive become, and what i could be...there are days where i look myself in the mirror and hate what iv become, what i m, for the anger, hurt and void inside which i cant explain, which i cant hide. Even when the sun shines, i could be dark n gloomy inside, being so a part of the real world, i could lose all d faith and light in me. I don't want to be a subject of this world. I want to be YOUR subject, to be lifted day to day, by your grace...to be entrenched in your love, and skip with your energy. i want to be empowered and to empower in my every day, in my lil ways....and imman, thanx fer affirming that, in your totally unexpected sms...you did magic to my night, just by sending dat sms. :)
and with the hols, the crowd and chaos beginsto feel like the world is rolling by at a pace quicker den usual..but princesses...thanx fer being my breather, for allowing me to juz be me. Bingz and pammie, whether its at work or at play, u guys chase my blues away...and it felt so good, just sitting right there, eating, singing, laughing, talking...so precious...
its the lil things that makes me feel blessed all over again...and i know this feeling, this feeling dats so nice...and i wanna keep this feeling longer this time, without holding too tite...just want to see you in evrything that comes my way...keep your chin up chelle, you've got god right behind you :)
