Wednesday, December 05, 2007 / 4:12 PM

and april rolled on to may, the surprise your first email brought, snowballed to another whirlwind of emotions..sometimes, looking back is good, it helps us appreciate the present better.

Sometimes the past helps us see, what we have failed to see in the present. Especially when things were simpler than, more rational than things are now. In the same absence, you got me missing you, just like in the past, you got me wanting to hear from you, read your blog, just hoping to see you, in any form, through any means available. And as April rolled on to May, i saw how lil rina's face lit up with hope, then fell again....

Maybe it's just been such a long tiring cycle, that any ounce of anger extinguished, more nerves and fear, to know you were home, but we were not meeting up. and the lil fighter became more nonchalant, by the time you gathered your guts to ask her out....

And all these years of friendship came rushing back, chatting at the park, watching me swing on the swings, chatting in the serene of the night, in the church balcony, sharing ice cream, drinks, feelings, tears. (mine of course)

and more memories build, more than i thought we had, as i bring all this back to the present, just lying on your bed, as you mug away at night. Or having you throw that highlighter at me, and breaking up into mini bouts of silly laughter even amidst your stress.

And your girl, santarina, lil fighter, is taking her baby steps to facing the past, but confronting it with the present. And know that her strength comes from you. Your choice gave her access to hug that *ahem body of yours....gives her the right to lean right into you expecting you to catch her when she falls (so train up those *ahem arms pls :)). And her entitlement to all the lil pecks and kisses, when you reassure her. Last, but not least, her greed for your love, knowing that she'll love and treat you the best way she noes too. :) well for starters, you know she makes your bed, though right now, shez sure she cant cook as well as you :) oopsie...

and in all these funny, clumsy ways we'll get along, living each day simple, entertaining ourselves with our fav vids, serials, food, and beloved friends. She'll wanna be your lucky star, though she whines at how your circle has limited her to Hougang...but she noes wen you pamper her, and bring her out for movies, jap food and ice cream...

so may rolled many stressful, busy months into december. Shez settled at a new school, new colleagues, new CCA...and you, busying with fyp, and still playing the role of being MAN in the house...and she looks at you, through these newfound respect and awe, (occassional awe) that her best bud before has grown up alot...and she loves both the boy and man in you :)

This december, this Christmas, God brought us our gifts much earlier..cuz as May rolled into December, God brought me you. A certain you, a decided you, a you i can hold, hug, lecture, nag and scold..:p

and wherever you are now dear, no matter how cold, i hope this entry would turn up those ends of your lips, and bring that twinkle in your eyes...It' s hard to read in yello, but, yello has alwaz been what your msgs should be painted in...cuz i wrote it, this time, with sunshine in my heart.

Wednesday, December 05, 2007 / 4:12 PM

The Girl Inside

Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.

Break The Silence

SOULMATES ON THIS JOURNEY

Never Forget Your Thank Yous

Memories