Thursday, November 08, 2007 / 3:21 PM
its been a long time since iv been around here...had a distracting, fulfilling week....:) but..fatty pak is feeling like on top of the world...probably only thing weighing me down is a single thought of SOWs, a thought which im determined not to let grow.
Afternoon post on a humid public holiday...still stuck indoors...been a real lazy bum...but a happy chirpy one..:)))) hmmm...thoughts still just randomly running..wait. strolling along in my mind...how should i even start my own recollection of my week..
What have i been up to.....well for starters..iv discovered a really cool place along old Choa Chu Kang rd, yeah juz busstops away from the exile, Jln Bahar..:p its called the Home Team Academy, where they groom leaders and protectors of Singapore's security....(with pride) hahah...its really cool since im usually there at 8am, and the sun is barely, rarely still up...where miss lin is Mdm, and officer-to-be...(who could have imagined)..where the NS police men are labelled as mungkoks (not too sure how to spell that, but degoratory labels need not be accurately spelt in this case), where you have to wear your hat and the only way to get your way around is to march. NO. I. AM.NOT.KIDDING.
Well, but in case you are laughing at the imaginary vision of ms lin in her uniform. Hey, i don't look too bad, if i should say so myself..and to my surprise...im feeling alot of pride too going through this course..which is a gd thing cuz i think im gonna need the energy n zest to be with my cadets at ubin this weekend, and for myself the entire next week...well many reasons holding me back from wanting this camp, missing out on princesss time, bf time, dance nights, suppers with neighbours, and friends leaving for overseas, watching my lil angels perform fer the last day of sch..well the list goes on...but there is a part of me who is looking forward to the old days where you eat outta mess tins, climb retarded heights and feel gd being with your group...yeah the gd ole cedar and cj days...
more importantly, i hope to find another me..rather, i hope a part of me which might i might have lost to bz days of teaching n lesson preparation since january...find back a more energetic n focused ms lin, less tired, less stressed...more positive and taking charge of my life. . feeling quite blessed these days really...i mean, no school, no planning...plus i gt to sit thru lessons, haha without having to teach, learn new stuff like tying knots and pitching tents, footdrills..haha..dun play play ok, miss lin juz learnt how to build her home for the coming week...its triangular, its double layered, it dsnt have a very high ceiling n it slps 4 ppl..haha no prizes for guessing what it is...it requires 14 bowline knots..haha not dat that is very impt...but tying that knot took a gazillion tries...i bet my fellow T.O thot i was retarded or sumthing..so you see im no fast learner...
well, this good break has done me good i guess..mr yellow commented that the skin is clearing up, bingz princess been very sweet, still dropping in to check on me frm time to time, pammie till msging very pammie-smses and making me laugh at her... :) thanx dearies...thanx fer sticking it out with me, even though i hvnt been ard much...rather at all, with NPCC course and the recent yellow project...*smile to myself* been feeling dat lil blessed plushie me coming back...with home made brekkie, hero serial nights and short gd honest conversations with old friends like carol, ivy and shu! and i met up with angel..finally...caught up and heard about retarded shoplifters!! gawd....exciting stories...
well, il wake up to a few hrs to don dat npcc uniform with pride...pray hard dat i dun embarass myself too much while im learning..gd night world..gd night martian..gd night to all my god send friends out there...let the starry night warm all your hearts and light all your dreams!
The Girl Inside
Michelle,
seeking the best in her, yet looking at her best days unfolding right before her at the same time.
contact her at: inspiremydance@hotmail.com
"It's not how hard you fall, but how hard you fight back."
Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.
~endless time in the studio
~more cuppa time with dearlings
~travel more places
~dressing up
~getting that diver's license by 2009
