Saturday, June 09, 2007 / 1:32 AM

thinking day...finally admitting that I need to think, b4 i can change...i need to experience, to see, to realise, b4 i recognize how far i m from an ideal....not a perfection...i guess its realizing hw people ard me are so "perfect". I mean, put aside little flaws which most of the human race has....these frenz are really ideal gals..besides being smart, they are not bad looking, they are determined, independent, capable both of career and household chores....They are also patient, loyal and very dear frenz of mine........and i started thinking...mayb i should haf done so long ago...but i realized i wanted to be like dat...i want to be so much more den i can be...so much more than i m.......so much better, more pleasant, more valuable..as a fren, daughter, person...perhaps next time, so much more valuable as a gf and wife...

Its the training of the mind? or the change of the heart, to chase out flaws, to learn to hold ur tongue wen hurting words, mean comments are coming out. To give people the benefit of the doubt, to see beauty n grace in the people u meet. To revisit the simple values we learnt at our tender years-the values of patience, kindness. To add wisdom and grace to these values. To not be corrupted or compromise with the pressures of the world and society today. To look at your family and be tahnkful that parents are still giving and selfless. To want to model after them and teach children these same values. It's realy not bullshit. It's a mouthful, it sounds like from the CME textbk, but its true, honest, difficult and yet achievable.

I want to start, i hope i know how...to look back at the end of the year and tell myself: hey, iv grown as a teacher, as a fren and as a person.....clearly i cant reach it with a snap of my fingers...i dunno when il reach this target but i hope itl became my goal, my mantra and my prayer with evry waking moment. Change is the only constant..n i hope il change to become a gift to more ppl...cuz right now, i dun think this michelle is very much yet.

*wondering but not unhappy*

anyway, juz a not to BHF besides: CYA ON STAGE!
its been great and i guess you all know it...whether we say it out or not...
its how different we are, yet how we all gel together
its how we squabble, bitch and complain, but we alwaz end the session gossiping n laughing
its how anger dsnt stay long, and mutual understanding increases evryone's threshold, be it fer lame jokes, bitchiness or flare ups.
its how we know, how we connect, how our steps can flow, look the same and evryone feels gd..
its the new umbrellas...and mary's blog that touched hearts n brought ppl closer...
its the energy, motivation and support
its the diversity not the differences that makes BHF shines,
its the history and the friendships that makes evry step of this competition, worthwhile
and its ROZANA, CANDY, TAUFIK, IDIL, MARY and many frenz and supporters, (there or not) that makes me feel very lucky, happy and blessed..

counting my blessings, as many as the stars in the sky tonight

Saturday, June 09, 2007 / 1:32 AM

The Girl Inside

Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.

Break The Silence

SOULMATES ON THIS JOURNEY

Never Forget Your Thank Yous

Memories