Wednesday, November 22, 2006 / 9:50 AM
finalllyyy..thank god for this morning that i get to slp in, to be lazy...and to quote pat, to feel sorry for myself b4 heading outta hse..its gonna be a long day ahead..with the history fieldtrip and the community service and all...oh well..im sniffing the end of the semester...cldnt haf been happier....no angsty, uptight michelle...juz a very plushie happy penguin (as sum1 wld say) bumming in bed...
ooooh...y in bed!! iv finally gt wireless!!! hahahah yesh this miz untech saavy primitive lin been fortunate enuff to be working frm her rm, chatting on msn at macs too..hahah see..balance balace...amidst my work, theres alwaz entertainment...YOutube! MSN! haha..really gotta thank daddie lim for helping me out..cuz i was hard up rushing assignments earlier...yeshhh..like u nus undergrads..hahah...yup..my nw that the pressure waves have crashed and subsided...heehee blogging while still lying on my bed still feels like quite a luxury to me...
the last time ive blogged was about 2mths ago, while i was still immersed in the hassle of grad show and all..with that long outta way, i mean the scholars have even met up fer reunions already, i guess the gd thing is i think i became more involved in sch...n mind u, that is still to day the bare minimum cuz i think others still c me as THE slacker..bt iv been trying to prove myself, to do stuff..bt school will nv tk my entirety.
hvnt stopped dancing dats fer sure..realising recently hw much my dance expenditure is w/o thinking about it wen i pay for classes...guess its a willing purchase..cuz i get alot more out of it den the 12 bucks or 10 bucks i pay...my best fren says im using it to fergt my pain, so much so i might be addicted..well...i dunno wad is..mayb ultimately, its the ego to c hw gd i can b, dat i wanna keep dancing to prove to myself...n i really dun c myself as my ideal fantastic dancer yet, so gotta keep dancing to improve..or mayb like all singaporeans, its juz the fear of losing out, of falling frm the place im already in...fear that stopping dance, il juz become nutting...
well, holding dat thot on nuttingness...juz thot i shld say thanks to the big papa above for watching over me all these while...n letting me see him thru my frenz, thru dance..aliens...thanks fer listening to my probz, fer being dere eating with me, helping me out with work..u guys really make that stifling hellhole more bearable and give me motivation to go sch..shu, carol, delia...thanx fer reminding me dat god has nv looked away frm me..n im glad dat i noe u guys will alwaz be there...esp to shu..thanks fer knowing wad to say, when to say...fer nv ever pressuring me..jem...wad can i say..ure my recent biggest cure...thanx fer ice cream..which i believe numbs all pain...esp with gd company....choooooby...i miss u.
its my blog..n i can say what i want...i dun hate my life nw...bt im nt the happiest....i c ppl working hard fer me to mk me happy, n i feel bad that they are...cuz i dun deserve it..sorry to someone for the mistakes i make..for the decsions dat hurt others...n ive learnt...honesty still hurts others...
The Girl Inside
Michelle,
seeking the best in her, yet looking at her best days unfolding right before her at the same time.
contact her at: inspiremydance@hotmail.com
"It's not how hard you fall, but how hard you fight back."
Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.
~endless time in the studio
~more cuppa time with dearlings
~travel more places
~dressing up
~getting that diver's license by 2009
